I have said many goodbyes in my life time.

It's not unknown to many that I have adventurous, free spirited wandering soul. It is just who I am. I like change, I like the unknown, I like to put myself in not so every day situations. From the outside people see this as a good and fun thing, which of course it is. But there is a side to the wandering unattached soul that many don't see.

Throughout my life I have been many places and met many people. I feel that I can make friends pretty easily. I am not too hard to get along with and I can tolerate most people. Not only am I human, but a girl so of course I get attached way to easily.

I think about the past and all the life long friends that I have around the world, many whom I still keep in touch with. Once someone enters my heart, it is really hard for me to forget them, I am telling you I get attached easily. I am reminded how near and dear to my heart many of these people were to me at that season in my life. These are the people that make me who I am. God has truly blessed me through out my life by putting the exact right people and situations in my life at the exact right time. Crazy that He maybe kinda sorta knows what He is doing? :]

Genuinely, with all the people that have entered my life as more than an acquaintance, I still think about them, I still remember that things they taught me, I still remember their qualities that I adore and strive for, and I still pray for them.  I still smile when thinking of the various memories, laughs, tears, sheninagians, what ever it may have been and am genuinely touched in thinking, wow God truly blessed me through that friendship.

Uprooting myself many times throughout my life, I see and appreciate the a good true quality relationship that doesn't change no matter time or distance. I can honestly say I have more of those than the average person, and know that I have made a few more this past season of life.

Goodbyes are usually always hard. For some reason I always think with time they will get easier, but for me they get harder. I guess when it is hard to say goodbye to someone it reminds you of how much you really do care about them. As much as we may hate them, we all know we can't stay in the same life season forever, other wise we would never grow and thrive.

I am sad to leave my Octapharma family. Truly. They really became like a family to me, challenged me, and helped me to grow and develop without even knowing it. In the beginning God kept reminding me He had me there for a reason, I didn't understand but stayed. I couldn't even imagine if I didn't stay, not that I made an impact there, but the impact they made on me. They blessed me and touched me in a way that will never leave my heart.

And of course it is always hard to say goodbye to good friends and family. But this time was different. Much harder. Not sure why, well maybe. But I can say I am at peace with all. My soul is well and I am leaving with complete and utter contentment and peace in all situations in my life. No untied string, no bitterness, no resentment. It is well with my soul. Such a great place to be.

So although it is a hard goodbye to many, I am anxiously awaiting the new friends and people to come in and impact my life. Not to take the place of any other in my heart, but to grow my heart and make room.